irgendwann.

                                                                     vielleicht irgendwann ..

tired of being tired.

 

so tired of being tired.

nothing lasts forever.

you got a face like a doll. will it last forever? no.

help? somebody? .. anybody?

please. help me. please. help me.

please. help me. please. help me.

please. help me. please. help me.

please. help me. please. help me.

please. help me. please. help me.

please. help me. please. help me.

i can't take another day of this.

remind me. i can't forget.

everyone is sleeping while she remains awake, leaving reminders on her body of how much she hates herself.

i'm nothing.

 i'm not alone but i'm lonely.

  

 

 

 

 

pain makes people change.

pain makes people change.

breakdown.

gestern stand ich am abgrund. heute bin ich einen schritt weiter.

i just want to sleep for a couple of days.

i'm not sad anymore. i'm just tired of this place.

help, i'm fine.

i am filled with such a sadness and i am so tired that i could die.

take me to a place where doors are open, a lovely little place where no one's broken.

float away.

and suddenly the meaning of my thoughts started to float away from me.

like into a river falling leaves from a tree. the world was the river and the tree was me.

why am i so fascinated with you?

if you only knew that i'm so fascinated with you.

there's nothing wrong.

sometimes is just need someone to talk to. someone who'll listen and not just hear me. 

someone who'll understand me, who'll help me. sometimes i want to get lost but 

- all i really want is to be found.

i shouldn't.

all the butterflies and i can feel my heart beating faster.

.. and i know i shouldn't feel this.

bloody big mess inside.

sooner or later i'm going to have to think about it.

.. then i'm going to be a mess.

anxiety.

remember me, not just my name or who i am. remember what we had.

please do not ever forget me, do not ever forget us.

so it goes.

i hope someday you'll find all my quotes, all my words and read them all. 

i hope you'll know that they're all about you.

fade away.

you're going to have to save yourfelf.

superficial.

when i love, i love in vain. when i love, i just feel pain.

 

and superficial means to me: no secrets, no games, i'm free.

butterflies.

i know i'm not beautiful but every day i hope you think i am.

during the day i keep myself busy and sometimes time passes.

but at night, .. i really miss you

that's why she stares.

being left alone with my mind is actually quite dangerous.

sit back &' enjoy.

can't help.

i'll see you in my dreams.

i am nothing.

some nights you just feel worthless.

heartbroken.

feelings that came back are feelings that never went away.

dreaming is believing.

i wish you'd know that you always make my day.

never mind.

i liked him first, but it doesn't matter.

                            i still like him.

                            that doesn't matter either.

don't forget.

did you ever do this? you think back on all the times you've had with someone and you just 

replay it in your head over and over again and you look for those first signs of trouble.

an manchen tagen.

an manchen tagen hab ich mich im spiegel selber nicht erkannt, doch irgenwann hab 

ich gemerkt, ich hab es selber in der hand. ich mein, die zeit die uns noch bleibt ist ungewiss. 

wenn man hier unten ist, bewundert man die sterne in der ferne, doch sie funkeln nicht. 

ich greif nach den sternen bis die welt sich nicht mehr dreht. an manchen tagen weiß ich selber nicht 

was geht und ich weiß nicht wohin. viele täuschen sich nur selbst auf ihrem weg, viele feiern sich nur 

selber zu extrem und stellen fragen die sie selber nicht verstehen, doch das ist nicht so schlimm.

- doch das ist nicht so schlimm.

träumer.

ich machs mir selbst schwer vieles könnte leichter sein, ich hab fehler gemacht und kenn die 

einzelheiten. mir ist bewusst, dass man ziele nicht im traum erreicht. man muss sehn wo man bleibt, stress 

soweit das auge reicht.für den moment bleib ich ein träumer, gestern war verkackt, aber morgen fang ich neu an. 

die gedanken eines träumers kann nicht jeder verstehn, ich leb mein leben lieber abseits von realität. ich darf nicht 

aufgeben, auch wenns gelegentlich nicht läuft. ich will mein traum leben, und mein leben nicht vergeuden.

träume sind schäume, der teufel verleugnet, gefühle und wahrheit, die leute sind 

käuflich. jeder von uns träumt davon, dass er was ändern kann. schaut in den spiegel, 

fangt erstmal bei euch selber an.was gestern war ist egal, es zählt was heute kommt. 

- ich weiß wovon ich rede, nein, ich träum davon.

jar of hearts.

no, i can't take one more step towards you 'cause all that's 

waiting is regrets. and now you want me one more time and who do you think you 

are? running around leaving scars, collecting your jar of hearts and tearing love apart.

 

you're gonna catch a cold from the ice inside your soul. so don't come back for me, 

- who do you think you are?